A lot has changed since my last post. I am sorry it has taken so long to write an update on my blog. On May 15, I broke my ankle playing soccer with the kids. Unfortunately, it required surgery and I came back to the states three days later. For the past three months I have been home, recovering, and spending quality time with my family. Thankfully recovery went well and I am heading back to Honduras tomorrow. The beginning of my time at home was very difficult because I went from serving others 24/7 to sitting on the couch and being served by others. It was a very difficult transition, especially because it was so unexpected and not what I desired at the time. But, as my time at home went on, I began to see the beauty in it all. It definitely happened for a reason. I was able to spend lots of quality time with my brother that I wouldn't have had. I also was able to enter into suffering in a new way. I read a few great books in my time laying on the couch and one of those is called Interior Freedom by Fr. Jacques Philippe. It talks about how a person with true interior freedom realizes that even in the most unfavorable outward circumstances they possess within themselves a space of freedom that nobody can take away. One of the quotes that stood out to me the most in the book was when he states, "No circumstance in the world can ever prevent us from believing in God, from placing all our trust in him, from loving him with our whole heart, and from loving our neighbor." This helped me come to an important realization. Although I wasn't serving as a missionary at the Finca, I was still called to be a missionary where I was at and to love the Lord with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and to love my neighbor as myself. Just because I wasn't able to love the kids through being physically present to them, didn't mean that I wasn't still able to love in other ways. It is easy for me to miss the people and opportunities that God has placed in front of me to love when I am focused on my own vision. I am very thankful for this time because it served as a reminder to be less inward-focused and more aware of the smallest ways the Lord is calling me to love Him and others in each moment. I would not change this time I had at home for the world but I am so excited to go back to the Finca after a long time away from the kids, employees, and community members. Please pray for me as I transition back into life at the Finca. But, especially pray for all those who live and work at the Finca full time. It truly is such a special place. And being away from it makes me appreciate it all the more.
kennasandblast
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